...Sorry... I'm still learnin hw to control I hope my dream won't come true
Alone i stand
6:04 PM
It's only 1 week n 3 days hav past.. Thanks to those who hav been asking me hw hav i been inside ba.. Its boring inside.. Bt worst w/o my hp for sure.. The only time i'm looking forward to its always the nite time.. Today whn i went out.. Feeling tat everything hav changed.. The feel is so weird n distant.. I seem nt to belong tere anymore..
I hate to express myself anymore..
Being juz one-sided..
Nt knowin wat others r tinking..
I felt so bhb~
So like wat i said..
I hav to let go..
I cant b so selfish~
...Juz wondering... Who am i? How much do i mean to u? Am i juz the same as others?
Do i bother too much?
Wat if one dae i'm gone?
Alone i stand
8:59 AM
Friday, August 28, 2009
Hey here i am baq again.. Still tryin to get used to life thou.. In the past i also thot of running to somewhere.. Somewhere where i can hav my peace.. N nw it seem i really find the place le ba.. A place where i won't noe wat is happening outside at all..
Bt nw, tere's still a thing i can't let go.. Things will change, people will change.. Feeling a bit left out.. Shld i sae tat.. Nw i dread fri to come.. The daes inside.. Its time to learn hw to let go..
i'm juz a nobody~
Alone i stand
4:17 AM
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Hey hey..will b baq in 5 daes time again..haha~ Tis 2 daes been busy settling my stuff n it's nt even finish yet..Shit~ There r so any things tat i nd to do.. Busy is all i can sae..
Erm.. gg to bk in again soon...
hai~
Alone i stand
3:30 AM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
期待爱-金莎/林俊杰 歌词
My Life 一直在等待 空荡的口袋 想在里面放 一份爱 Why 总是被打败 真的好无奈 其实我 实实在在 不管帅不帅 想要找回来 自己的节拍 所以这一次 我要勇敢 大声说出来
Well life inside was only 3 daes.. Bt to me it juz seem so long.. I hate to be inside ba... Nt able to noe everything first-handed.. All things tat i knew was all out-dated~ N i really hate tat.. Or hw i wish mayb i shld'nt hav come out at all.. So tat i won't noe tat i hav missed out so much.. Where i hav no freedom to do anything.. N to be tere.. Whn im needed? For the first time, I really can't take it anymore..
It's nt the same at all tis time Or mayb i shld juz get used to it.. 6 mths of living in tis manner.. It kills.. I hav something tt i can't put dwn.. One tat only makes me so worried n anxious.. Mayb things won't b the same anymore.. I noe.. All i can sae is.. Plz take care~
I can't control the feel.. Whn i tink of u.. Whn i tok to u.. Seriously, i nv had before.. They juz wished to come dwn so.. N one dae they did.. For the first time.. Bt i noe i hav to b strong.. I hav to endure.. For tis 6mths... Cose of u..
Alone i stand
11:21 AM
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Erm juz a quick post before i will nt b at hm for a few daes..haha Mon went to hua class n it's was really fun..Her routine is dope~!! Went to meet those girls for dinner after tat..ps meet so late eh cose i gt dance..erm..Anyway althot its a short meetup bt still it's really fun craping ard again like the past.. Haha Jy woh all of u n meet up again eh.. :)
Tue was packing my bag n realised tere's stain on my white clothes..I was so omg~~ Tried to wash it off bt failed n decided to leave it to my pro mum to do it..haha.. Thn after tat i hav prob stuffing all the things into my backpack..haha bt still i mangaged to stuff it all in of cose..
Anyway, will b baq on weekends Cya soon n take care everyone~ :D
Missing u deeply..
Alone i stand
5:00 PM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Well.. Fri went to work as usual ba n after tat jiu went rp practice dance wif the others..haha~ Its been long since i session le n its tiring~!!Somemore session until quite late..learnt alot frm shantelle thou..Thanz lots woh~ :)....So tired after session bt still went to eat before hm cose too hungry liao~ Somemore the other 2 came to find us to eat cose im gg in on wed le ba..erm..ps made u guys travel so far n waited so long..Thanz too woh~
:)
Sat was last dae of work for me thou..Finally this time round is my turn to sae bye le ba..Been tere for 2yrs 6mths, longest job i ever had..seeing ppl leave n nw is my turn le..haha.. Within tat yrs working, althot tere r many ups n dwns, still i love this job alot n i also enjoyed workin wif all the ppl tere..They r all really great~!
:)
Today gt to rest cose no work~~ hehe n early in the morning i intended to accompany my mum c doc cose she was unwell..In the end, my dad accompany her instead.. Therefore, i spent my time packin my stuff on my table realisin hw messy they r.. I'm so afraid whn im nt at hm my table will b messed up by them..shit~! Tis is one thing i hate abt where ppl touching my stuff n misplacing them..haha opps~
Tomolo, gg hua's class for the last time..erm..i will really missed it alot..Hope whn i can go her class again which i dont noe whn, i still can catch up..haha~ N after tat gonna meet up poly mates to eat
:D
Erm..n i havent even really prepared my stuff for wed..hav to wait for tomolo thn will noe..N tue will b a busy dae for me thn, to pack my stuff..
omg~
Thanks for all the assurance~
Truely touched deep in my heart..
All the promises..
Kept deep in..
Remember i'm always tere for u..
Ur xxxxx n xxxxx always
:)
Alone i stand
7:22 AM
Thursday, August 13, 2009
I hav been enjoying my fast fews daes so much after it been postponed.Postponed for 1 whole mth.Nt noeing whn will they call again nor did i ever tink abt it at all anymore..Till today...
Whn i first received the letter 2mths ago..i still hav 1mth to prepare to enjoy life..In the end whn they postponed, n im act so happy..cose there r so much things tat i wanted to do..n things r also gettin beta beta n tats whn i noe u nt for long.Or mayb i won't b so upset at tat time if it nv postponed ba.bt nw..it's all diff le~
Juz at 7+pm today..after i send a msg to someone..i jiu reached a call..A call tat i suddenly dread so much..Juz whn things r gettin beta, n hw much i enjoyed myself for the past few daes..nw i only 'left' wif 5 daes..erm..at tat time whn i thot i hav to 'go in', i was worried if i cld make it for tat impt dae~ n nw i felt.. Its has been gd to me too..To at least let me be tere for those impt daes before the call came..Still i was really veri upset nw, cose i hav planned everything so nicely for the nxt 2 wks n nw all my plan has to b cancelled..
Was wondering, will it b the same again like 1 mth ago tat they sae it will b postponed again..nw hw i wish it will again..at least till 1 more mth..I can't go for dance anymore..n mostly imptly, rectial audition is here..n its only nxt wk yea i dont noe if i hav the time for it nt..Im so lookin forward for it to come since last yr..N i hav a frenz who has a sch proj..nw i dont tink i can go for it too le ba..
Imagine everything was planned so nicely, n last min it hav to be all cancelled.. I hate last min stuff!!! Nw i only left wif 5 daes of freedom..I wished the training won't b so bad as wat i tink..
This time round, i'm nt prepared at all~
I'm sorry i can't be tere for u everydae anymore.. All i wish nw is juz to spend the nxt 5daes wif u.. I don't wish to do anything anymore bt juz b wif u.. I enjoyed those daes juz as much as hw u enjoyed it(I hope).. I love the nite.. I love the time where tere's only u n me..
Durin my off dae in the 6mths, My time will all b reserved for u first.. I miss u..
N lastly, I love u..
Alone i stand
5:28 AM
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Well today gt to off n so i slack the whole dae at hm..haha..N AnAn is finally baq frm taiwan~ Whoohoo..n yet i didn't went for her class juz nw.. Instead i went studio wu wif xl sia to learn house!!! haha omg its damn fun la..The routine is quite easy bt nt the warm-up..Haha our legs juz brk dwn frm the start of the warm-up..Bt still it's was fun i act dont mind gg baq again to learn lo..
Went PS to eat toastbox after tat n slack ard before gg hm..Tis is wat 2 bored person r after slackin whole dae at hm..haha..opps~
Anyway today was zk's actual 21's birthdae!! Happy Birthdae to u~ :D
Alone i stand
11:55 PM
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Today gt to off ba so went for baby dedication early in the morning at 10 am.
Omg~ haha bt the babys r really all very cute..Travis was tere too n he is slping on ryan's hand.haha..Went straight off after tat ba n went to find someone..
Eveing time was zk's 21st birthdae celebration ba celebratin it wif Singapore.Makin me can't watch the parade on tv..Opps~..Anyway, the party was really veri funny is all i can sae lo.
Poor zk was kanna smashed by cake.I was tinkin tat was worst thn xl at tat time.ha~ erm..Tis was the 2nd time i attented a big birthdae celebration. 1st was xl, nw is zk.. It seems so fast..
I love the nite
Thanz for the warmth~ :)
Alone i stand
11:59 PM
Friday, August 7, 2009
Remembering 1 yr baq, i started learnin hiphop..Attendin course for the first time...N today~ I managed to gt baq tat feel again.. Haha.. Thanz to fredy :) Whn everyone heard me gg to hh1 course, the instructors were shocked saein u go hh1??..opps~ Anan was away to taiwan ba so today class was taken by Allegra n Fredy.At first i thot it will be xiao hei ba~ Whn Allegra saw me in class, she was like huh? haha.. Anyway class was tiring today n all we did was juz down bounce..Its gd to practice my basic again~ n i kinda of miss street jazz n locking class..Erm..nvm i still gt many chance to go.. I juz love dancing so much~~ Rp n Zk jiayou ok!! haha..Me n Xl waitin for u all :)
Im so looking forward to xuehui class nxt nxt wk.. I always love her class cose its the class where i first step out alone~ A class tat i will try nt to miss..
:D
Anyway im act bit sian cose hav to work tml ba..Can't go locking tml..hai~ n nxt 2 wks sat im also workin..sad~Well, 23th is the audition for recital.. Jiayou ba :)
Thanks for the hug~ For the first time
I kinda of miss those daes
Erm..
Hope you like it~ :)
Alone i stand
8:07 AM
Sunday, August 2, 2009
...It's all over...
:)
It's was a tough night for me yster. Where they all came dwn like nobody business. So sorry once again. I can't control my ownself. My attitude, My frustration, My sadness. The cause of everything once again. I said before it won't happened again. Bt yet it did. Im sorry i did nt make it a prefect mth for u. Who will love quarrels? None will.. I wish it won't happened again~ Nt ever anymore.. Hw i wish i cld juz disappear. So everything won't happened at all. I don't wish to c everythin repeated again. Cose it really hurts.
The promises tat we made once again. The telepathy in us. Forever b kept in my heart. To remind me of everythin. I will change to learn wat is call control. I wan to treasure all i hav nw. Cose i can't afford to lose it once again~ Thank for letting me enter ur life.
Bt Remember if one dae u don't nd me anymore. Please tell me.
Alone i stand
8:24 PM
Soon it will b over~ How i wish i cld juz disappear.. Nt bothering abt anything at all.. Im tired over all tis again.. Its happening once again.. Plz.. Leave me alone~
..I wish to b alone..
..I don't nd anything, anyone..
I dont nd U to be tere~
Alone i stand
4:50 AM
Saturday, August 1, 2009
Yster, Was out at orchard juz to eat carl's JR ba..ha n after tat went to shop ard before decidin to catch a movie at 9+pm..Otw tere, i was quite surprised to c my sec sch chi teacher, yang lao shi..haha~ She still remembered me thou n gave me a smile..n i act forget her name whn i saw her.only after thn i remembered.opps~ haha she's act a veri nice cher :)
After movie was ard 11+pm le ba,headed to somerset to catch the last train..Luckily still gt the red line baq hm..haha n otw saw xuehui,eve,gin,allegra,kh headin out of the station..
Reached hm ard 1+ am n straight away knocked out..haha~bt still i enjoyed the movie
:)
Sorry~
I knew tat she's the most impt person to u tat noone can replaced..
And I understand...
N im also the one keep askin u to look for her
I noe u hav been lookin forward to tis dae..
Im really ok wif it..
Nt all things can be understand n expressed out..
Plz dont hate tis mth..
I juz wan u to be happy~
It makes me upset tat i cant help u at all
I'm sry..
Alone i stand
9:06 AM
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❤QiuYu
Age: 20
Email: hoqy@hotmail.com
Loves: hangin out wif frenz, watchin movies, listen to music~
Dance is everything to me~ =D
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