...Welcome...

2010-08-30T19:23:00.000-07:00

I realised i really havent been updating for so long le ba.. Cose i always didnt get the time to use the comp and my comp is always so lac tat im too lazy to go online..haha

Anyway, Few daes ago someone ask me if i had given up dance..
n it set me thinking..
what had i been doing for tis past few months..

I still love dancing..
bt compared to the past whn i gt nth to wry, nth to tink bt juz dance..
Now...
I juz feel so stress in work n in life..
Having to wry tis n tat..
Having to tink of many things ahead..
In the past dancing is my passion,my love n future to me..
but now..i can't..
Money issue gt more n more too tat i feel so stress up wif..

Beside money issue..
c-ing hw long i hav nt been practicing..
c-ing hw much ppl hav improved..
I can only sae i have not given up on dancing..
But it has become my interest nw..
shld it be said tat way?
Erm i tink so..
Cose i also really can't sae wat dance is to me nw..
Bt i can only say i still love dancing..

N to u, u noe..

thanx for always nt givin up on me in dance..

n im sorry to always let u dwn..

c-ing u having so much improvement n performance chances..

jiayou~!

2010-07-18T09:38:00.000-07:00

...Pomises are meant to be broken...
...Heart are meant to be broken...

...Words are choosen to be ignore...

...Not a single care or concern...

...Coldness that makes one shiver...

...No explaination to be heard..

...Charge me guilty forever...

...I choose to believe...

...Therefore all r kept in me...

...To the verge of breaking down..

...Silently...

2010-07-01T20:15:00.000-07:00

I juz realised tat i gt almost gg 1 mth that i nv blog le...Been busy wif course which ended late always n need do CREATIVE mindmap everydae..After course jiu baq to working shift n i find it almost no time to online at all..omg~~

Finally i'm nw on the road le riding wif my fto who is guiding me...I will always be around city area so mayb u guys might c me ard tere or c me passing by? haha..

N yup nw my bike is finally ok le ba...N im glad i nv give up on him..haha.. N it really cose me lots to repair it to a beauty nw.. Love it lots!~ :D
N tink till nw nt much ppl hav seen my bike ba..well soon soon k...i will try post up photos whn i gt the time...haha..

Anyway doing bravo shift today...Sian!~ Yster end work at 12.40am which break the record for our team..haha...the latest time to go hm...omg~! hope today will end early...Erm...

2010-06-10T03:50:00.000-07:00

Been veri veri busy for tis past 2 weeks thanx to u ba...Makin me full or emotions n tink im gg crazy soon cose of u..hai~ gt u for 2 wks n i spent more thn 1 wk juz to go baq to ur old hm? Alway seeing the same old ppl n now even others recognise tat u belong to me.. Erm..

How i wish tat u can really get well soon..I really need help n i tink im gg crazy cose of u..Cose of u i tink i gt to tok to many helpful uncles?haha..n Cose of u i trouble many ppl too..

Really veri sorry n thanx to all this that helped me..Tat sweat alot cose of me n wasted the trip down juz to help me....n those tat acc me..really thanz~

Bt still i troubled by u..Mayb i really wish i dont hav u nw ba..Making someone worried so much..Plz get well soon...I wan to bring u out tgt to many places..

N so fast 2 mths jiu over le ba..Im gg baq to my shift work nxt wk..Sian~ Dont like it at all ba..or mayb gt gd n bad ba...hai~ Hope tat i still hav my freedom ba..

2010-05-27T19:35:00.000-07:00

I finally gt u on 26 may...
N i made many plans wif u...
We gt a long wkends tgt..
Bt yet u keep getting sick..
Tml i nd to send u to the doc again..
I hope u will get well soon..
Cose i wan to bring u to many places..
I need u alot...

2010-05-21T08:08:00.000-07:00

In juz 1 wk, i almost gt killed 4 times..

Today is juz nt my dae...

Bt it matters no more nw...

2010-05-20T07:54:00.000-07:00

Ended work late today ba..Cose went to the yio chu kang in the afternoon as my sir wanted to visit a frenz tere...First time gg tere ba..N the 3 of us was like a abandon kids tere cose my sir went to find his frenz ba.. Even a 10mins seem so long to us..haha..

Finally off work n went to bugis to meet my poly mates.. Sorry i was late again..Erm..Went to eat at the fish beehoon tere n went bugis to take a walk n tok before gg to mac to sit n slack again..Haha..N finally hm...
:)

2010-05-08T18:27:00.001-07:00

Whoohoo class is gettin more n more interesting le ba.. Bt it also means harder n harder le ba..omg~ Really nd alot of practice.. 2 wks ago i injured my toe n till nw its nt recover yet..Bt its ok..cose I still can dance!~ Whahaha..
Anyway i tink tere's only 4 lesson left..Omg~Its so fast...
Erm...

2010-05-07T18:17:00.000-07:00

I finally pass my theory n test road once again!! Whahaha...N my bike keep dieing on me daes before the test..OMG~bt luckily during the test it die on me only after the brk time n i cld manage to change to another bike..

Nw finally it's time to go on the road lo..Haha..im lookin more forward to it cose its really boring to be inside n keep gg circle..

Anyway, went to view a bike today wif ym..Engine n price was gd n we almost deal it..Bt cose of some problems found after tat..I felt that i didn't wan the bike le ba..Seriously i really like tat color of the bike cose its blue..Bt tink im wry for my pillion n also speed..haha..opps~ Well, I sure i can find a gd one again n soon i hope...

2010-05-03T07:35:00.000-07:00

...Juz for u ..
:)

2010-05-02T05:39:00.000-07:00

Sun gt a short meet up wif sher n ps ba..Been long since we really meet up..haha..gt 1 yr?erm...bt well finally we meet up n im sorry tat im so late n make 2 of u wait so long..

Went to coffee club at imm for dinner n the 2 of them wif minyen gt me a long necklace..Haha..Thanz woh~!.. N tat present made my hand so dirty cose its wrap wif many paper n newspaper..Goodness~ haha n tats thanz to tat ps...haha..

After dinner went for a walk n find a seat at voiddeck for a tok before gg hm..Althot its a short one, bt its nice to c them again after so long..
;)

2010-05-01T17:24:00.000-07:00

Whn i tried to make an effort
Bt yet all those words crash all my hopes down
I juz hope u won't give up
...

2010-04-30T23:57:00.000-07:00

...When i could feel u..

Happy birthdae~

2010-04-26T05:19:00.000-07:00

...Thanks...
Everyone for ur wishes!~
Really didn't expect there's so much ba especially in fb...
:D

Well today gt work as usual ba..Till 5pm before i went to meet my frenz for dinner..Sorry to make u spend so much again..Erm..N really thanx woh..The present tat u gt for me..
I love it lots..
:)

At nite, my family bought a cake for me n had a small celebration..
Thanks once again..
:)

Finally i'm 21st le..Its time to get a bike!
:)

Birthdae Eve~

2010-04-25T23:55:00.000-07:00

Friday nite went to meet up wif my poly mates for dinner ba..Been mths since we meet again...Haha..Ps woh to b late n thanx for the present..
:)

Well, Went to hav lunch at the taiwan snack cafe today..Forget its real name le thou..Haha
For the first time we order tat much tat the waiter gt stunted..Haha..
OMG~

After that went to novena to meet my family for an early celebration..Had a late lunch so dinner didnt really eat much thou n its an ex buffet...OMG~ Bt its really yummy thou..

Was damn full after tat n while my dad went to look for the atm, we decided to take some photos before gg hm..By the time home, i bath n ko straight cose tere's work tml..Argh!~ sian..

2010-04-24T06:37:00.000-07:00

...I always HATE april...

2010-04-23T18:06:00.000-07:00

Tere's always a fullstop at the end
Cause of me

Guess life or death
Means nth to me anymore

Listenin to so many stories
Nw i juz waiting when's my turn

Guess i gt nth to hold on anymore
I hav been given up

N tats marks the end

If one dae i gone mia suddenly
I guess no one will noes too

2010-04-21T05:38:00.000-07:00

Well i thot hw gd the course will b..hearing frm others hw enjoyable it is..bt well tere's true n bad abt it ba..Always riding under the sun is hot n tired ba..n still we could only leave at tat time in the eveing n wasting 2 hrs of our time for lunch brk..yet tere is nth tere n nth interesting ard that whole building to spend my time beside slp..n in a uncomfortable place too..

Every wed, after work, we still nd to run ba..Tiring after one whole dae n still nd to run can really kills..erm..Today was nt feelin well in the afternoon so ended up restin in the locker rm while other 2 went for ride..Ended up they came baq quite early cose there's thunder n lesson was cancelled...N of cose..no nd go for a run too cose it's gg to run.. :)

Seriously everydae hw i wish i cld get out of the place tat makes me feel so tired n uncomfortable..mentally tired is all i cld sae after every dae.. Bt well tat's work..When i gt to shift work..guess it's worst.. Everyone always tell me to get prepared..haha..To hav more rest n stuff.. Well guess i still prefer to go to sch thn..Where tere's still ph n sch holi.. Argh!!~ Hw i hope i nd nt work n juz do watever i like everydae..hai~

Mayb ppl who noe me in the past will tink whn did i become like tat always complaining abt work whn in the past hw glad i will b to b working n earnin many money...Well im also tinking..where's the past me nw?
Or mayb like wat my mum sae..
Im too used to my comfort zone in the past..

B it work, life or anything..
Im seriously mentally tired..
At times i jiu feel so down cose of things..
How i wish i cld hav my freedom...
How i wish i gt my movitation...
How i wish im nt being treated tis way..
How i wish...

Bt at times..it's nt up to me to choose...
N i could only accept it..
Tat's life~

2010-04-17T07:54:00.000-07:00

Well its always the case
...I...
The cause of everything
...AM...
Tats shw wat a lousy friend i am
...Sorry...

Seriously i hate myself totally...

2010-04-16T20:01:00.001-07:00

Finally the training ends today..My last off for it..N i gt my team le ba..Tere's gd n bad abt it.. N tat means i still nd to work on ph..Hai~ Bt heard everydae after work i might be able to leave eailer thn other team...Bt well..we shall c ba..erm..

Anyway heard frm others in division its veri tiring ba for their shift..Nw im consider luckily to hav 2 wks of training where i still gt to relax n play w/o worryin abt nite n afternoon shift..Bt soon its gonna b my turn..hw will i b thn?Erm..

Anyway for nw im gg attend the riding course..Nd to go baq to the start n learn again..bit boring thou..Hw i wish i cld upgrade straight to class 2A or 2 like the guys..ha..Bt well..I can take it a chance to practice..Like wat ppl always sae...Practice makes prefect..

N one gd thing!! Haha..I cld join bboy 2 le..Whoohoo..Im so happy to b able to cont for nw..N after tat..tink i will b tinkin if i cld join bboy 3 thn...erm...

2010-04-11T18:50:00.000-07:00

Been working cont. for 1 whole wk n finally i gt my rest..which makes me so tired..a wkend to me nw makes me feel it's juz like any normal wkdaes..sian~ Anyway gonna nd many many rest ba..too tired liao..erm..

Luckily for me, im nw training so nt much paper work to do..haha..n nt much things for me to handle..Bt i still looking forward to gg for the riding course.. I hope tat i can learn many interesting things frm tere..haha..

Anyway tis time round..im firm..After my birthdae, I gonna get a bike for real tis time..no more waiting anymore...Cose i really nd my own transport tis time..

2010-04-08T05:41:00.000-07:00

First dae reporting to tis unit n was following T4 for morning shift...Act time goes quite fast today followin in the car patrolling at the expressway going up n dwn..Bt act its veri tiring too ba..N tis wk im workin 7daes straight..Tired is all i can sae..Hope tat they will give me baq 1 off..Anyway, i can forsee wat i gg to face whn im on the road alone ba..Today learnt many things again abt tis dept n it is nt so easy as wat it can b seen..

Well glad im in the car today cose the weather keep changing frm hot bright sun n big rain n sun rain.. Tat is wat i nd to face whn on bike few mths ltr n im gonna b alone depending only on myself to decide everything..

Was told of many things today n well.. most imptly i learn today is SAFETY FIRST!~
Especially mine..haha..Im being reminded tat most impt is to always make my way baq to base safety.. I'm glad today tere's nt much cases tat i attend today..

Well, I need to prepare myself for everything tat im gg to face soon..
I nd to learn fast starting frm nw..

2010-04-07T22:26:00.000-07:00

Finally my 3 daes of training is over~ omg..no more office hrs n nd gg to report to my dept tml..Which means it's shift work..Erm..Really learn alot frm the 3 daes training thou abt diff dept..N some makes me feel tat tat dept is beta thn those patrol ba..Bt well, i'm jiu kanna patrol..bt the '8' hrs work at least did cheer me bit?haha.. Gonna report morning shift tml n nd be tere at 6.45am..N its so early tat i don't hav train or bus at all to go tere ba..Terefore hav to ask my dad drive me tere n make him miss his slp..

In tis unit, im gg thru another 10 daes training n all is morning shift to get to mix ard wif all the team..Still nt sure wat team im gg to n hav to wait till 10 daes ltr to noe my shift n frm thn follow tat shift work le..Nw nd my dad to send me tis 8daes..feel so bad to wake him up so early ba..n well i gt no choice bt to beta get my own transport..erm..Don't wish to keep trouble him n make him miss his slp ba..

Nd to wake up early for work tml..Gonna finish my last mindmap asap n gg slp lo..

2010-04-05T22:05:00.000-07:00

Today is my first dae reporting to tat headquater..OMG! its damn far n took me abt 1.5hr to reach..Luckily i only nd report at 8.30am.. Haha..Nw thn i noe more abt the things tere ba..It's nt juz wat we thot tat tp means petrol..Tere's act many dept all in juz a building..All dept gt tere gd n bad things ba..Will be having 3 daes office hr training before i noe which dept im gg to..

Will b gg thru all the depts to understand the roles of it during tis 3 daes n tere will b a test on wed..Argh~ haha.. n after each dae of training, i nd to do a mindmap of wat i learnt on tat dae.. Tats when i seriously noe tere's so much in tp tat i didn't noe wat all or wat normal ppl won't hav noe too ba..

Gt my locker too n i seen other ppl locker gt so much things in it..Even those bathing stuff r tere too..I guess i don't feel so hm yet to put so many things in it thou..N somemore i find the locker arrangement quite eerie in a way like those u seen in ghost movie..Haha..The weird smell n a weird silent in it tat makes me wish to get out of it fast..The air is so dead inside tat room...

Anyway Ended late n by the time i reach hm after tat 1.5hr journey, tired is all i can sae..
N still nd to do mindmap n make it as creative as possible..omg~ Wondering which dept i will b gg too..

This is what im taught to do whn im new..

Sun

2010-04-04T23:48:00.000-07:00

It's my last dae of leave ba n so called the last wkend i had le ba.. After today, i will b working shift work n who noes whn i cld gt to leave on wkends..Sian~

Went to marina barrage for kite flyin and it's fun!! Haha..Since long nv fly kite le n running on the wet grass make us so muddy n dirty bt who cares!~ As long as it's fun..hehe..Luckily it stopped raining le ba bt yet tere's nt much wind in the afternoon..Luckily we managed to fly the kite successfully when eveing comes..hehe..Played till 6+pm i tink before heading to marina square tere for dinner..Ended up nt feeling well so didn't eat much thou..Ps woh to everyone n thanx for taking care of me..

Saturday

2010-04-03T23:39:00.000-07:00

Regret joining bboy so late ba despite keep saing i wan n love bboy since i started to learn to dance..Tried to learn by myself in the past n fail..haha..nw went to bboy1 n its so fun n i did improve compared to when im learnin myself..So fast it's last lesson today le ba..N hw much i hope i cld contd to join bboy2..bt due to work nw..due to the shift work i am in..i couldnt ba..hai~ I will contd n try to learn again by myself..

I won't give up de!~

Sunday 2 chalet~

2010-03-28T23:31:00.000-07:00

For the first time i gt 2 chalet on the same dae ba..haha..
SO i ran both sides..n juz nice they r only 1 blk diff ba..R07, S07...
1 is xinyee's 21st birthdae n the other is my squad gathering..N it's a sun n im so glad i nd nt bk in anymore le ba..orelse i jiu can't make it for the birthdae celebration le which is at nite..Reached tere abt 7+pm n stayed till 10+pm before hm sweet home..By the time gt home ard 1+pm le ba..haha..Glad i nd nt wake up early the nxt dae...

Well, nw im gg enjoy my 1 wk holi ba..don't noe hw will it b like whn i started working..Tere r many things i wan go n do ba..hai~ Hope tat i will hav the time..
Erm..Suddenly i dread working so much..

N also wondering hw my 21st birthdae will b like..Juz started out working n don't tink i wan to take leave to celebrate too..To me, it will juz b a normal dae..

Anyway some photos frm xy's celebration...:)

Dance dance dance

2010-03-27T19:28:00.000-07:00

So fast its the 2nd last lesson for bboy..OMG!~
haha..Last lesson gonna b at scape..
I hope tat i can really continue bboy2..Cose it's really damn fun..I wan to train harder to do beta..
:)

Finally it's over~

2010-03-26T17:47:00.000-07:00

Went baq juz to de-kit today ba..Nw we cld juz walk inside like a big shot~ haha..Its a waste of time thou n made us waited for so long..They even provided us wif the last lunch tere..Damn it~ Whn hw i long to live tat place asap..

Finally after lunch, we finally noe our posting..Some r disappointed n some r happy cose they gt their choice..I'm the lucky one to gt my 1st choice..Bt i also can't imgaine im gg to b a TP..haha the one whom i always laugh n sae i hate their uniform..When i heard i gt to tp, my feeling was quite neutral ba cose i did't thot of even gg in after hearing tat chances r low..n i had backed up my plan n ended up i really hope to go tat way..Bt still, here i am being a tp..I did gt my own reason ba anyway to y i wan b tp..
:)

I know that they r many ppl who r worried for me cose i will riding a bike..I will promise to b careful!~ Plz don't worry..I hope tat tis job cld b beta than wat i thot..I like freedom..

22 May~!!
Wait for me~
I won't let u down..

Passing out

2010-03-25T07:02:00.000-07:00

PASS OUT!~~
Well finally it's my turn to pass out lo..haha..getting more n more slack as daes goes..n finally today everything is over..Still don't noe my postin ba..Hw i really wish i cld go to the place tat i really wish to go to..erm..

N stupidity i nd to go baq tml juz to do some minor stuff which cld b done today ba..Beta nt make me stay too long tml..Damn sian..
Anyway today..the last dae of everything tat act content quite many memories for me ba..N act i miss my corner, my bed, the staircases..Nw tinking tat i'm baq at hm..Instead i feel tat i do nt hav my quiet time anymore ba..Can't b leave alone as n whn i like n juz do the things i like to do..erm..

N tinkig baq hw my fi made the malay girls keep crying like tere's no tml ba...n he himself tear too after c-ing wat the malay girls had done for him on behalf of our squad..

Anyway 1 of my squadmate cld nt make it wif us tgt cose of ippt ba..Hope tat he will really able to pass out soon too..

The thing for FI~

Thanks for always being tere for us!!~~

N i also wan sae thanx to someone who is always tere for me for the past 7+mths..
Sorry for all the troubles all tis while too..

Some thots..

2010-03-24T06:07:00.000-07:00

A Great Person...

2010-03-20T08:59:00.000-07:00

...6 MORE DAYS...

ps. It gonna b veri lengthy

Time flies veri quickly ba..N finally the dae the whole squad always long for it here.. We r nw the senior squad n nxt wk we r passing out le..Everyone is veri happy abt it bt it also means we r gonna miss someone..The someone who love us the most n we love him too..

To me, Whenever i leave a school since young, i don't act like any teacher at all cose i tink that they r all baised lots...Even if they r nt, they don't care abt u at all..Therefore, all my teachers after i left..I don't go baq to c them at all..N i noe they won't even remember me cose i'm juz a normal girl in the class..

Bt tis time, it's diff..I'm might b as close to him as hw the others r, bt i noe he is nt baised and he is always noticing one n each of us..He always like to play n joke ard wif us n even tease us...I remembered the first time when i went in n he was nt ard on the first dae..So wat we all noe was his name n yet nt noe hw he looks like..On the second dae, he was tere wif another fi who take us bt yet he didn't tell us who he is..Instead he tell us tat we will c him soon n tat's whn we slowly gt to realise he was the one...

After abt 2 mths ltr, he followed n acc us during our meals time..At first i still tinkin y must he always b tere..N he always sae tat he love us n will miss us whenever we leave camp for things n won't b baq for daes..The other squad will always ask y is our fi following us n i always sae cose he love us too much...N they reply was "so good!"...At tat time to me..i was juz ok lo..haha..I admit i'm always cursing n swear whn he brought us to run cose i hate running! haha..bt whn we r nt running, he's veri gd..

N one dae whn our squad was having our lowest point well everyone hav a tok n tear, i was yet being heck care n smiling tinkin wat time can i bk out..haha...Bt when we r abt to bk out, i didn't realise n dont noe y cose of him i tear..cose i heard he was hospitalized n he sae he won't give up on us no matter wat..

Yster the girls did something wrong again n he was being bombed by the others during meeting..He was damn unhappy n shouted at us for the first time..N after tat sae sry to us cose he had no where to vent his anger..He even said tat he was nt angry wif us bt wif those ppl who always like to pick on us ba..Bt yet we noe we r at wrong too..Being delayed for walk out n he said instead of gg baq bunk to clean up, y nt stay tere wif him awhile longer..n he sae he want to c us smile n we started light topic..A topic tat make the malay girls cried n laugh at the same time like tere's no tomolo..Cose of wat he said to us..I was bit affected by wat he sae ba cose he was really veri gd n i can c his eyes r getting red..

We r act also his first squad tat he acc us wherever we go n will treat us food n so..He told us tat he himself don't noe y too bt juz tat he love us..He had nv treat his past squad the same n he sae he won't treat the same to his other new squad too..N nw we r leaving to pass out soon...He was quite upset bt he noes tat we won't leave him at all..
:)

He's a great fi n always the first person tat can affect me so much ba out of all teachers in the past althot he's nt really a teacher bt a field instructor..haha...Anyway juz wan sae a big thanx to him n i'm glad to hav him as my fi..I won't forget him at all..I will post up his photo whn i gt all the photos frm my squadmate..
:)

Lost hope...

2010-03-19T17:46:00.000-07:00

I'm used to it
...I hav lost hope..

Countdown~

2010-03-13T21:33:00.000-08:00

Countdown to 1 more bk in n out n 12 more daes to go
:)

Can't wait for i to come..
Its getting more n more worst inside...
Hate it to the core~
But well once out..i need to b prepared for the nxt challenge coming up
Hope i cld get wat i wan..
erm..

Attachment wk~

2010-03-08T21:18:00.000-08:00

Woh baq frm a veri good experience tis wk ba...when for attachment bt its juz for 3 daes.. 2 morning shift for me n a nite shift.. i hear from my squadmate tat some of them cld leave as early as 7+ pm while for me..? it's always till 9+ before i could leave..n the best of all.. Im posted to sengkang area..n took me 1hr 45 mins to travel here n tere..omg~
Well it's a veri good experence for me ba...to able to experience hw isit gonna b outside n got to many of many things happening outside.. n they r all nth beta to do is all i can sae...OMG!!! On fri cose of 2 girls i waited for 2 hrs causing me to end work late...n all i told them was nxt time plz choose the correct time...On sat stupid neighbours cause me to end work late again..omg~! N on sun..early in the morning wake me up from 'sleep' n cause me end work late again..Damn it..haha..
Bt tere's gd n bad to experience hw life will b outside ba...But well.. I wish i cld b a tp ba...
In the past i nv thot of hopping to go tere ba..bt then nw after tinkin...i really wish i cld go in..Erm...bt hear tat chances r slim..
hai~

1 year old ryan

2010-02-26T18:57:00.000-08:00

This is a veri long time ago n i only got to see the photos nw..opps~ haha

Ain't he cute? :D
My cousin's son, Ryan who is finally 1 years old..

Totally upset~

2010-02-25T23:09:00.000-08:00

B-Boy lesson

2010-02-20T17:32:00.000-08:00

Miss the 1st lesson tat time ba n finally..
This sat went to osch for b-boy lesson by kh..
First time learn n first time teach by kh..
N well It's fun ba..
Bt i'm veri diasppointed in myself!!!~
Argh~!
I need more practice especially my strength...
erm...

Chinese New Year~

2010-02-17T17:24:00.000-08:00

It's a long holi tis wk ba..
Cose of new year..
N as usual,
chu 2 n 3 jiu went to house visiting..
Chu 3 early afternoon went to imm to take sushi n c my colleges before heading to the party at "ESTA". It's a beautiful place..haha..Anyway been long since i seen them..
Luckily i gt 1 more dae off thou orelse i need to bk in on chu 3 nite..
omg~!
Anyway i gt 1mth 1wk more to go..
JiaYou ah!!!

Chinese new year n valentine's dae

2010-02-14T23:53:00.000-08:00

Happy Chinese New Year
&
Happy Valentine's Dae~

Both of the daes crash tgt ba..n guess most of the ppl will celebrate valentine's earlier n chu 1 spend wif the family..haha
Anyway tis new year both my parents are working ba till eveing time..
N my sis.. She went to bai nian wif her bf...
Therefore, today i was at hm till eveing time before gg to my aunt hm for house visiting..
Anyway went coffee club i tink to eat and tis is wat u gt on valentine's dae..
haha~

valentine's present~

2010-02-13T23:06:00.000-08:00

;)

A New Year~

2010-02-13T21:37:00.000-08:00

It's New Year Eve~!!
Haha Finally its a new year ahead..
Stayed home n helped out for preparation the whole dae..
Bt managed to slip out to far east for awhile for my sis to take a walk
Whaha...Opps~
Today tere's more ppl at my house for dinner..
And the food is yummy n alot~!!
As usual my dad will go chinatown after dinner bt i nv go..
haha cose i hate to squeeze!!
Anyway, It will b a busy daes ahead~
6 days of holi..
Whoohoo~

ps. I love driving~
:)

Meet up~

2010-01-30T23:56:00.000-08:00

Yster once i bk out jiu rush to town to meet my poly mates ba..been long since we met n all of us change de change, remain de remain..haha.. Glad to c them ba..n everyone is 21 yrs old le expect ME!~~ Well April i sure will make sure u all meet up again..haha..opps~ ;)
Anyway,
Happy Belated Birthdae to the 3 of u woh, tiff, sl, fy..

Anyway today went to my cousin baby's 1st yr old celebration ba..Ryan grow up veri fast n is really veri cute....Its at aloha loyang n the place is damn big ba..haha..Im tinkin hw much it will cost sia...cose its a terrace n gt 2 storey sia...nv gt the chance to explore thou cose tere alot ppl i dont noe de..haha..n long time nv c my cousin le...some of them change too le..

People change as time goes ba...Chinese new year is coming n after tat i can forsee there r so many things awaiting for me...I can't wait for March to end...erm...b it gd or bad...at least i no nd to stay in anymore..haha..
Wait for me!~ ;)

Jiu noe u love fri n sat as much as i do

hehe~
;)

POCamp

2010-01-22T17:51:00.001-08:00

It's been long since i blog n somethings i tink i hav forgetten too le ba by the time i'm baq every 1 wk ltr...haha..I gt stm thou..
Anyway tis wk was quite happening ba..gt a 3 dae 2 nite camp at pula ubin which i hate cose its damn boring!!!On the 2nd nite tere's a nite walk which make me so tired..Juz walkin ard in pula ubin juz to find a small bottle...N i realised tat the place is so dark tat w/o torch light u can't really c anything at all ba..Plus tiredness, Its best to concentrate where i'm gg cose whenever my mind drift somewhere else, it's easy for a person to drift away easily too..haha..Finally on the last dae, When i came baq i was quite tired n slept the whole journey home....I'm so glad it's over..
;)

Anyway to those 3 bastard~
You guys beta watch out!
DON'T MESS wif ME!
Thanx god for letting me find baq my hp at least...

I'm so sorry to make u so worried
...

Wk nt to remember..

2010-01-09T03:11:00.000-08:00

Well..
tis full week is so much of up and downs ba..
Got so many things tat i felt tat i gg to break down anytime le ba..
Luckily,
tis wk of tiredness is finally over..
Or has it?
I juz gt a serious scared today..
A kind of feel tat i dont noe wat to do..
Worried n yet i cant do anything to help..
Luckily,
its a sat...
Orelse i won't noe wat i will hav done...
Juz to ensure u r ok..
BT nw...
Luckily,
its really over le..
:)

seeing ur smile baq..
seeing the way u tok to me..
seeing the way u scold me..
seeing that u r finally ok..
I hope tat it won't happens again..

hw i wish i cld bear it for u...
Cose i won't noe wat i will do thn..

Mayb i will go crazy?
N i will so worried if im nt wif u..
Do take care..
Hope i'm able to b tere for u always..

A new year

2010-01-02T19:04:00.000-08:00

It's a brand new year 2010!~
Hope everyone hav a happy n great year awaiting..
:)

As for me.. it means a tough yr ahead..haha..
At the end of year 2009, i'm already bombed wif many 'GOOD' news...
N well nw its time to prepare to fight them off..
I need time n money management~

time to let go

2009-12-26T17:00:00.000-08:00

I hav fallen too deep in
N now...
Its time to let go
To go baq to where i shld belong
.....

Christmas

2009-12-25T18:51:00.000-08:00

Merry Christmas!!!

Thanks for such special christmas present~

I love it lots..

So fast its over~

2009-12-20T07:10:00.000-08:00

Well..1 wk jiu so fast like tat ba.. N tml im gg baq again..tinkin of it i feel so damn sian..Hw i wish i cld b like others havin the freedom to b outside wif no one to care abt doin anything u like..hai~ nvm..tis is a job..n w/o tis i tink i won't hav such income too..i can only work hard..so i cld buy n do the things i wan...

Dont noe y suddenly tis 2 daes being feelin so moody ba..being in a low mood n alway keep tinkin of many things which i also dont remember n stuff..or mayb tinkin too much at times too.. No mood to tok at all ba n even nt much feel to eat.. Guess cose im so sick n dread of gg baq ba..

erm..

Thank for always being by my side n nt givin up on me

erm....

sry to always disturb u...

Wed class

2009-12-16T18:50:00.000-08:00

The feeling was also so diff frm the past whn i walked to osch at tat time at tat moment for tat class.. Bt whn i gt into the class, slowly i gt the feel baq.. Juz like mon i went to xh's class, i went to anan class tis wed..Quite surprised whn gt in cose there's nt much ppl compared to the past ba..erm..bt still totally enjoyed it n miss the time i went for class every wk.. Both mon n wed class taught rectial choreo by ocrew n using the same song.. The song is really vei nice n funny..haha.. Don't noe whn will i b able to go both of their classes again..
erm..

Anyone gt this song?

Thanks for being by my side~
:)

Rectial

2009-12-14T06:11:00.000-08:00

Thot i cld nt make it for tis yr rectial ba..In the end, i finally cld ba..cose juz nice i'm on leave..hehe..Its nice ba the rectial..Tis time diff in a way cose most ppl i noe r up on stage..Everyone really improved alot ba.. N well i'm quite happy n envy at the same time tat they cld hav the chance to b on stage ba..

It's juz too late for me..erm..

Anyway finally after 4mths, i cld go xh's class once again.. Quite happy bt woried at the same time ba..It's 4mth le ba which also means i havent been practicing for 4 mths!!!~~ omg!~ Well, whn first step inside, i feel so baq to the past..even whn started dance..i feel so baq to the past wif no improvement bt like worst..OMG!!~~ sian lo.. Bt still i enjoyed the class alot today..It's still as fun.. Seriously, hw i wish time cld go baq n i cld still go class every mon..
I really miss her class alot!
:(

Anyway, Jasmine thanx for the hp strap
:)

Thanz for accompanyin me tere...

Happenings one after another~

2009-12-11T08:05:00.000-08:00

Well..
Things been happen one after onother wk by wk ba..
B it sad, happy, F*** up , excited n stuff..
I'm so glad i cld finally take a brk nw..
I'm so sick n tired of being inside..
Wat's the meaning of being as a grp whn ppl r backstabbing here n tere..
Yea it's really true..
No one can be trusted at all~!!
Plz juz leave me alone~

Hw i wish i cld bear it for u

n nt to make u suffer

...

Wedding Dae

2009-12-06T23:04:00.000-08:00

Today is a happy occassion!~
Cose its my cousin's wedding dae!
Gt up early in the morning to her hm to help out ba.. Travelled here n tere before being able to go hm to take a rest n con't for nite dinner..Haha..It's the first time i attended my own family wedding ba..Kind of fun thou..
N somemore i cant believe for the dinner at nite..I gt a special guest ba.. A guest i can't believe tat will b so qiao..Guess w/o tat person the dinner might nt b tat yummy to me too ba after noein of tat tis special guest is coming..haha..
It was quite a close shave tat only we noe..
:D
Dinner at nite was yummy ba..
N the way the restaurant present the first dish was amazing i shld sae..
Overall, It's really an enjoyable dae ba..
I'm glad i cld attend the dinner n nd nt bk in on tat dae
:)

Lastly,
Another one to our collection~ :)

Genting~

2009-11-28T20:14:00.000-08:00

Hw i wish tat time will juz stop tere

Love you~

Feelings~

2009-11-15T01:24:00.000-08:00

Fear
Loneliness
Lost

.......................................

Numbers

2009-11-14T17:01:00.000-08:00

812
413
1010
2222
1111

Nice no. in a row
:)

Another wk~

2009-11-13T20:02:00.000-08:00

5 more daes n its been 3 mths tat i hav been training le ba..Its seems things gt worst to worst le ba..N im starting to hate it more n more...I thot it will get beta bt yet it gt worst.. Im nw hating tis kind of life~ Why can't we b the same as other grp.. I hate tis grp n i hate spy~ Dont noe when tis kind of life will ends...

Tryin to do a gd deed n ended up wasting our time n sleep~
I won't do it anymore~

Can't wait for ph to come..
:)

5th mth annniversary

2009-10-31T17:57:00.001-07:00

Happy 5th mth Anniversary~

:)

Althot we didn't managed to go to the place we intend to
Glad tat u still enjoyed it as much as i do

8 daes course

2009-10-31T06:05:00.000-07:00

Been attending a 8 daes course ba..It's been good n bad in some ways n nw its only 3 daes left..Im dreadin it to come act..Seriously, i hate social nite..N i hate ppl to noe i dance nw..Helping me to spread whn me myself is nt a good dancer at all..Making me so ps nw..Juz being alone inside wif noone to acc me..my usual dance mates r nt ard me..I'm nt used to it.. N for the first time, i'm alone..I'm dead meat..Totally no confident to a totally new dance, noeing nuts abt tat song n singer..
Hw am i supposed to complete it...
Hw i wish i was nt involved..

2009-10-17T18:15:00.000-07:00

I don't care wat ppl tink of us or even tink of me.. I juz noe tat we r nt wat they tink..It's juz a matter btw us..
I feel tere's nt a nd to explain so much to others..
Telepathy i like it
:)

O.s: Omg~ Tis time i'm really gg be a boy liao..haha cose i nd to cut my hair even shorter le..I'm caught once again!! No more tuck in hair.. AHh~

2009-10-16T18:45:00.000-07:00

Tis sat was act deepavali bt too bad tere's no holi for us ba..we do nt hav any half dae n so..But in the end, I'm still able to 'celebrate' deepavali~ Gt a fever since thu nite so early in the mornin on fri went to c doc n gt a mc..whahaha~bk out at 9+am n home sweet home...

Bt well, received a msg at nite frm my buddy n after c-ing it..i was like win liao..Y isit always us?..Gt a duty nxt wkend ba..means nxt wk dont tink i can bk out ba..Hai~

Well juz wan tell my alway dance kakie,Jasmine..

Do jy for ur rectial n 3.16 woh..Anyway rectial is on a sun ba..I knew tat i won't b able to make it dwn cose i nd to bk in le bt i'm sure u can do it since u hav so much performance before le..Cont'd to jy woh..N nt forgettin ur studies too

:)

To my one n only,
Tis wk i feel so xin fu ba..Wif u always by me..
Thanx alot..i regret sain tat sentence bt i really dont mean it.. I didn't noe it will affect u tat much..bt i'm act quite happy too cose tis shws tat watever i sae mean alot to u ba..Thanx so much..I noe i hav been keep repeating bt still i wan sae...
Forever u r my one n only, i wan nobody bt only u..Cose no one can replace ur position deep in my heart..It can only contains u.. N i'm so sry tat i passed my sickness to u making u feel so uncomfortable..Glad u're alright nw..
Love u always~

2009-10-10T21:53:00.000-07:00

Thanks for the nite
:)

I like the feel with u beside me
Waking up n get to c u first thing in the morning..
Ur blur n cute face tat makes me can't stop smiling..
All i can sae is i miss n love u lots..

Another Weekend

2009-10-10T07:06:00.000-07:00

Well, tis wkends was a lucky one for me ba.. Almost can't bk out cose gt duty on sat n sun ba..Luckily i'm nt selected in the end orelse my wkends will b gone...Fri nite went out wif zk n y t ba..Finally can go out tgt liao and caught a 3D movie at iluma..Went arcade to played after tat n in the end too late liao hav to cab hm..N the taxi uncle seriously tok alot~~

Was wondering if fri is get to know ppl dae.. While i was inside my camp, I saw one of my poly mate who juz joined too n i realised tat we r stayin in the same place..

After tat whn i went to meet zk n yt, both of them asked me if i noe so n so who r they frenz's frenz n stuff.. Im speechless abt tat..Haha

Anyway, Early in the morning today, the weather is so cool for sleepin bt i gt to prepare to go out ba..Can't slp late thou..Went to my instructor's hm at woodlands tere for lunch..

For the first time i went out wif my them n they were saeing they knew y its raining today ba..It's cose of my presence..Opps~ win liao..

Bt first time gg for malay house visitng cose of hari raya..The feel is so diff..Haha..

Got the time to practice dance today n i realised tat its still my love n passion..

I won't give it up at all..

Even if i hav no time to go for open class, I will practice it by myself~

Seriously, I hate myself for who i am
I will change cose of u
It doesn't mean its nt me anymore
Its my bad temper tats the cause of everything
Cose You mean too much to me
...I'm sorry...

Happy mooncake festival

2009-10-03T17:41:00.000-07:00

Happy Mooncake Festival!!
Was workin in the morning today n thus it killed my nicely plan on fri ba.. Instead of movie, went to meet yt,rp,zk for dinner and its act quite rush cose of me ba..so sry woh..n also causin yt to come dwn all the way juz for awhile..Thank too for the trip dwn eh...erm..Nxt fri plannin to watch movie again..Hope things wont change once again..

Anyway at nite went out to town area...n did some seriouly CRAZY stuff in the public..It's fun thou..haha.. Hope u will enjoy it.. :D

Ever since i noe u
I noe tat u r the one
The one n only
Thanx for everything

2009-09-25T19:54:00.000-07:00

I'm really a lousy one.

Mayb if u nv noe me before, i feel you will b happier

I feel tat things is nt the same anymore

Slowly i feel u're drifitng away

Mayb its really time to let go

I can sense ur tireness

I can sense ur frustration

I can feel tat u don't wish to tok anymore

cose of me

All i can sae is i'm very sorry

...Whenever u wan i will still b tere for u..

I keep tellin myself it's nt tat way

Bt still i feel, i'm no diff frm them

I don't wan to b the same as them

I wish u cld tok

.......

Friendship~

2009-09-25T18:38:00.000-07:00

Once again, forgive me..
I'm sorry..

Miss classes~

2009-09-19T07:38:00.000-07:00

I really miss their class alot..

Hold my hand

2009-09-18T21:56:00.000-07:00

Disappointed

2009-09-18T19:06:00.001-07:00

I really veri disappointed
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
.
In myself
...I'm sorry...

Akon ft. Michael Jackson - Hold My Hand
[Akon]
Ohhh
Konvict Music

[Michael]
Ohhh

[Akon]
Yeahhh

[Michael]
Yeahhh
This life dont last forever (hold my hand)
So tell me what were waiting for (hold my hand)
Were Better off being together (hold my hand)
Than being miserable alone (hold my hand)

[Akon]
Cause Ive been there before
And youve been there before
But together we can be alright.
Cause when it gets dark and when it gets cold
We hold each other till we see the sunlight

[Michael]
(So if you just)

[Michael/Akon]
Hold my hand
Baby I promise that I'll do
All I can
Things will get better if you just hold my hand
Nothing can come between us if you just hold,
hold my, hold, hold my, hooold, hold my hand.

[Michael]
(Hold my hand)

[Akon]
The nights are getting darker (hold my hand)
And theres no peace inside (hold my hand)
So why make our lives harder (hold my hand)
By fighting love, tonight. (sooooo)

[Michael/Akon]
Cause Ive been there before
And youve been there before
But together we can be alright (alright)
Cause when it gets dark and when it gets cold
We hold each other till we see the sunlight

So if you just hold my hand
Baby I promise that Ill do (If you just, If you just)
All I can
Things will get better if you just hold my hand (yeahh)
Nothing can come between us if you just hold,
hold my, hold, hold my, hooold, hold my hand.

[Michael]
Hold my hand

[Akon]
I can tell youre tired of being lonely (yeahhh)
Take my hand dont let go baby hold me (hold mee)
Come to me let me be your one and only (hold my haand)
So I can make it alright til the morning (hold my hand)
I can tell youre tired of being lonely (hold my hand)
Take my hand dont let go baby hold me (hold mee)
Come to me let me be your one and only (one and only)
So I can make it alright til the morning (hold my hand)

[Michael]
Hold my hand

[Michael/Akon]
Hold my hand (yeahhh)
Baby I promise (hold my hand) that Ill do
All I can (hold my hand)
Things will get better (oohhhhoooo) if you just hold my hand (ooooo)
Nothing can come between us if you just hold,
hold my, hold, hold my, hooold, hold my hand.

[Akon]
(Hold my hand)
Hold my hand (yeahh)
Baby I promise (yeahh x4)that Ill do
All I can (hold my haand)
Things will get better if you just (oohhoo) hold my hand
Nothing can come between us if you just hold,
hold my, hold, hold my, hooold, hold my hand.

[Akon]
Hold my hand

[Piano ending]

Dead blog~

2009-09-11T21:33:00.000-07:00

Well it seem my blog r getting dead..Only updating on wkends n sometimes nv even update. Haha...Being busy thou n always looking forward to wkends still ba..Erm..Anyway xl flew off on thu le. Will only b baq 3mths ltr...Hope she will enjoy her stay tere... :) Whn she's baq im still gt ard 3 to 4 mths. Omg~ My instructor said tat we will sure miss staying in after we went out to work..I was wondering mayb ba..Bt tere's pro n cons still..

Anyway tere's bit things tat is happening btw us ba..n seriously..im fuck up wif them..bt still..it a 7mths thing..hai~ forget it.. I can't b bothered wif them..

...Thanz for always being tere...

Sorry~

2009-08-29T18:04:00.000-07:00

...Sorry...
I'm still learnin hw to control
I hope my dream won't come true

1wk 3 daes~

2009-08-29T08:59:00.003-07:00

It's only 1 week n 3 days hav past..
Thanks to those who hav been asking me hw hav i been inside ba..
Its boring inside..
Bt worst w/o my hp for sure..
The only time i'm looking forward to its always the nite time..
Today whn i went out..
Feeling tat everything hav changed..
The feel is so weird n distant..
I seem nt to belong tere anymore..

I hate to express myself anymore..

Being juz one-sided..

Nt knowin wat others r tinking..

I felt so bhb~

So like wat i said..

I hav to let go..

I cant b so selfish~

...Juz wondering...
Who am i?
How much do i mean to u?
Am i juz the same as others?

Do i bother too much?

Wat if one dae i'm gone?

Run away

2009-08-28T04:17:00.000-07:00

Hey here i am baq again..
Still tryin to get used to life thou..
In the past i also thot of running to somewhere..
Somewhere where i can hav my peace..
N nw it seem i really find the place le ba..
A place where i won't noe wat is happening outside at all..

Bt nw, tere's still a thing i can't let go..
Things will change, people will change..
Feeling a bit left out..
Shld i sae tat..
Nw i dread fri to come..
The daes inside..
Its time to learn hw to let go..

i'm juz a nobody~

2009-08-23T03:30:00.000-07:00

Hey hey..will b baq in 5 daes time again..haha~ Tis 2 daes been busy settling my stuff n it's nt even finish yet..Shit~ There r so any things tat i nd to do.. Busy is all i can sae..

Erm.. gg to bk in again soon...

hai~

2009-08-22T20:13:00.000-07:00

期待爱-金莎/林俊杰
歌词

My Life 一直在等待
空荡的口袋
想在里面放一份爱
Why 总是被打败
真的好无奈
其实我实实在在
不管帅不帅
想要找回来自己的节拍
所以这一次
我要勇敢大声说出来

期待期待你发现我的爱
无所不在我自然而然的关怀
你的存在心灵感应的方向
我一眼就看出来
是因为爱

我猜你早已发现我的爱
绕几个弯靠越近越明白
不要走开
幸福的开始就是放手去爱

3 daes only

2009-08-21T11:21:00.000-07:00

Well life inside was only 3 daes..
Bt to me it juz seem so long..
I hate to be inside ba...
Nt able to noe everything first-handed..
All things tat i knew was all out-dated~
N i really hate tat..
Or hw i wish mayb i shld'nt hav come out at all..
So tat i won't noe tat i hav missed out so much..
Where i hav no freedom to do anything..
N to be tere..
Whn im needed?
For the first time,
I really can't take it anymore..

It's nt the same at all tis time
Or mayb i shld juz get used to it..
6 mths of living in tis manner..
It kills..
I hav something tt i can't put dwn..
One tat only makes me so worried n anxious..
Mayb things won't b the same anymore..
I noe..
All i can sae is..
Plz take care~

I can't control the feel..
Whn i tink of u..
Whn i tok to u..
Seriously, i nv had before..
They juz wished to come dwn so..
N one dae they did..
For the first time..
Bt i noe i hav to b strong..
I hav to endure..
For tis 6mths...
Cose of u..

Quick Post

2009-08-18T17:00:00.000-07:00

Erm juz a quick post before i will nt b at hm for a few daes..haha
Mon went to hua class n it's was really fun..Her routine is dope~!! Went to meet those girls for dinner after tat..ps meet so late eh cose i gt dance..erm..Anyway althot its a short meetup bt still it's really fun craping ard again like the past.. Haha Jy woh all of u n meet up again eh.. :)

Tue was packing my bag n realised tere's stain on my white clothes..I was so omg~~ Tried to wash it off bt failed n decided to leave it to my pro mum to do it..haha.. Thn after tat i hav prob stuffing all the things into my backpack..haha bt still i mangaged to stuff it all in of cose..

Anyway, will b baq on weekends
Cya soon n take care everyone~
:D

Missing u deeply..

Tired~

2009-08-16T07:22:00.000-07:00

Well.. Fri went to work as usual ba n after tat jiu went rp practice dance wif the others..haha~ Its been long since i session le n its tiring~!!Somemore session until quite late..learnt alot frm shantelle thou..Thanz lots woh~ :)....So tired after session bt still went to eat before hm cose too hungry liao~ Somemore the other 2 came to find us to eat cose im gg in on wed le ba..erm..ps made u guys travel so far n waited so long..Thanz too woh~

:)

Sat was last dae of work for me thou..Finally this time round is my turn to sae bye le ba..Been tere for 2yrs 6mths, longest job i ever had..seeing ppl leave n nw is my turn le..haha.. Within tat yrs working, althot tere r many ups n dwns, still i love this job alot n i also enjoyed workin wif all the ppl tere..They r all really great~!

:)

Today gt to rest cose no work~~ hehe n early in the morning i intended to accompany my mum c doc cose she was unwell..In the end, my dad accompany her instead.. Therefore, i spent my time packin my stuff on my table realisin hw messy they r.. I'm so afraid whn im nt at hm my table will b messed up by them..shit~! Tis is one thing i hate abt where ppl touching my stuff n misplacing them..haha opps~

Tomolo, gg hua's class for the last time..erm..i will really missed it alot..Hope whn i can go her class again which i dont noe whn, i still can catch up..haha~ N after tat gonna meet up poly mates to eat

:D

Erm..n i havent even really prepared my stuff for wed..hav to wait for tomolo thn will noe..N tue will b a busy dae for me thn, to pack my stuff..

omg~

Thanks for all the assurance~

Truely touched deep in my heart..

All the promises..

Kept deep in..

Remember i'm always tere for u..

Ur xxxxx n xxxxx always

I miss u..

2009-08-13T05:28:00.000-07:00

I hav been enjoying my fast fews daes so much after it been postponed.Postponed for 1 whole mth.Nt noeing whn will they call again nor did i ever tink abt it at all anymore..Till today...

Whn i first received the letter 2mths ago..i still hav 1mth to prepare to enjoy life..In the end whn they postponed, n im act so happy..cose there r so much things tat i wanted to do..n things r also gettin beta beta n tats whn i noe u nt for long.Or mayb i won't b so upset at tat time if it nv postponed ba.bt nw..it's all diff le~

Juz at 7+pm today..after i send a msg to someone..i jiu reached a call..A call tat i suddenly dread so much..Juz whn things r gettin beta, n hw much i enjoyed myself for the past few daes..nw i only 'left' wif 5 daes..erm..at tat time whn i thot i hav to 'go in', i was worried if i cld make it for tat impt dae~ n nw i felt.. Its has been gd to me too..To at least let me be tere for those impt daes before the call came..Still i was really veri upset nw, cose i hav planned everything so nicely for the nxt 2 wks n nw all my plan has to b cancelled..

Was wondering, will it b the same again like 1 mth ago tat they sae it will b postponed again..nw hw i wish it will again..at least till 1 more mth..I can't go for dance anymore..n mostly imptly, rectial audition is here..n its only nxt wk yea i dont noe if i hav the time for it nt..Im so lookin forward for it to come since last yr..N i hav a frenz who has a sch proj..nw i dont tink i can go for it too le ba..

Imagine everything was planned so nicely, n last min it hav to be all cancelled.. I hate last min stuff!!! Nw i only left wif 5 daes of freedom..I wished the training won't b so bad as wat i tink..

This time round, i'm nt prepared at all~

I'm sorry i can't be tere for u everydae anymore..
All i wish nw is juz to spend the nxt 5daes wif u..
I don't wish to do anything anymore bt juz b wif u..
I enjoyed those daes juz as much as hw u enjoyed it(I hope)..
I love the nite..
I love the time where tere's only u n me..

Durin my off dae in the 6mths, My time will all b reserved for u first..
I miss u..

N lastly,
I love u..

Happy Birthdae~ :)

2009-08-12T23:55:00.000-07:00

Well today gt to off n so i slack the whole dae at hm..haha..N AnAn is finally baq frm taiwan~ Whoohoo..n yet i didn't went for her class juz nw.. Instead i went studio wu wif xl sia to learn house!!! haha omg its damn fun la..The routine is quite easy bt nt the warm-up..Haha our legs juz brk dwn frm the start of the warm-up..Bt still it's was fun i act dont mind gg baq again to learn lo..

Went PS to eat toastbox after tat n slack ard before gg hm..Tis is wat 2 bored person r after slackin whole dae at hm..haha..opps~

Anyway today was zk's actual 21's birthdae!!
Happy Birthdae to u~
:D

Special Dae~

2009-08-09T23:59:00.000-07:00

Today gt to off ba so went for baby dedication early in the morning at 10 am.

Omg~ haha bt the babys r really all very cute..Travis was tere too n he is slping on ryan's hand.haha..Went straight off after tat ba n went to find someone..

Eveing time was zk's 21st birthdae celebration ba celebratin it wif Singapore.Makin me can't watch the parade on tv..Opps~..Anyway, the party was really veri funny is all i can sae lo.

Poor zk was kanna smashed by cake.I was tinkin tat was worst thn xl at tat time.ha~ erm..Tis was the 2nd time i attented a big birthdae celebration. 1st was xl, nw is zk.. It seems so fast..

I love the nite

Thanz for the warmth~
:)

Hiphop 1 course~

2009-08-07T08:07:00.000-07:00

Remembering 1 yr baq, i started learnin hiphop..Attendin course for the first time...N today~ I managed to gt baq tat feel again.. Haha.. Thanz to fredy :) Whn everyone heard me gg to hh1 course, the instructors were shocked saein u go hh1??..opps~ Anan was away to taiwan ba so today class was taken by Allegra n Fredy.At first i thot it will be xiao hei ba~ Whn Allegra saw me in class, she was like huh? haha.. Anyway class was tiring today n all we did was juz down bounce..Its gd to practice my basic again~ n i kinda of miss street jazz n locking class..Erm..nvm i still gt many chance to go.. I juz love dancing so much~~ Rp n Zk jiayou ok!! haha..Me n Xl waitin for u all :)

Im so looking forward to xuehui class nxt nxt wk.. I always love her class cose its the class where i first step out alone~ A class tat i will try nt to miss..

:D

Anyway im act bit sian cose hav to work tml ba..Can't go locking tml..hai~ n nxt 2 wks sat im also workin..sad~Well, 23th is the audition for recital.. Jiayou ba :)

Thanks for the hug~
For the first time

I kinda of miss those daes

Erm..

Hope you like it~
:)

Sleepless nite

2009-08-02T20:24:00.000-07:00

...It's all over...

It's was a tough night for me yster.
Where they all came dwn like nobody business.
So sorry once again.
I can't control my ownself.
My attitude, My frustration, My sadness.
The cause of everything once again.
I said before it won't happened again.
Bt yet it did.
Im sorry i did nt make it a prefect mth for u.
Who will love quarrels?
None will..
I wish it won't happened again~
Nt ever anymore..
Hw i wish i cld juz disappear.
So everything won't happened at all.
I don't wish to c everythin repeated again.
Cose it really hurts.

The promises tat we made once again.
The telepathy in us.
Forever b kept in my heart.
To remind me of everythin.
I will change to learn wat is call control.
I wan to treasure all i hav nw.
Cose i can't afford to lose it once again~
Thank for letting me enter ur life.

Bt Remember if one dae u don't nd me anymore.
Please tell me.

Hurts~

2009-08-02T04:50:00.000-07:00

Soon it will b over~
How i wish i cld juz disappear..
Nt bothering abt anything at all..
Im tired over all tis again..
Its happening once again..
Plz..
Leave me alone~

..I wish to b alone..

..I don't nd anything, anyone..

I dont nd U to be tere~

A night again~

2009-08-01T09:06:00.000-07:00

Yster, Was out at orchard juz to eat carl's JR ba..ha n after tat went to shop ard before decidin to catch a movie at 9+pm..Otw tere, i was quite surprised to c my sec sch chi teacher, yang lao shi..haha~ She still remembered me thou n gave me a smile..n i act forget her name whn i saw her.only after thn i remembered.opps~ haha she's act a veri nice cher :)

After movie was ard 11+pm le ba,headed to somerset to catch the last train..Luckily still gt the red line baq hm..haha n otw saw xuehui,eve,gin,allegra,kh headin out of the station..

Reached hm ard 1+ am n straight away knocked out..haha~bt still i enjoyed the movie

Sorry~

I knew tat she's the most impt person to u tat noone can replaced..

And I understand...

N im also the one keep askin u to look for her

I noe u hav been lookin forward to tis dae..

Im really ok wif it..

Nt all things can be understand n expressed out..

Plz dont hate tis mth..

I juz wan u to be happy~

It makes me upset tat i cant help u at all

I'm sry..

Sick!~~

2009-07-28T07:04:00.000-07:00

Well..Mon was my sis graduation ba..Finally both of us r graduated..haha~ Well uni graduation was act so diff frm poly de lo..I really like to c uni graduation..I felt so like in harry potter cose of the teachers' wear..Bt its really veri nice i feel.. Dad was late ba cose of work..Bt he finally arrived wif a flower for sis n luckily he made it in time too before the whole thing ends..haha opps~ :D

After tat went jp to eat ba..a small celebration thn my sis treat..hehe n so nan de my dad is free at tat time to at least eat wif us in the eveing before work again.. :D bt cose of tat i miss dance ba..erm..n tink for the first time ever since i learn dance..tis might b the whole wk i nv go dance ba..Partly cose i m totally broke too le ..erm..

Anyway tink i gt flu nw le ba..Jus finished up 1 whole roll of toilet paper for sneezin..haha opps~ N my nose is damn red nw..sian~ feel so sick..erm..

Fun dae~!

2009-07-26T20:20:00.000-07:00

Well today only went to work for awhile jiu go hm le ba cose of some reasons....

Went to sat the ship n whn the night come i suddenly felt tat i was crazy at tat time..haha...cose everyone was so quiet n scared while i was the one shouting away..Somemore there r veri little people ard liao..Was thinkin the whole place can hear me liao.Opps~ tinkin baq so ps..luckily they wont c me again..haha..

Its been long since im tere le ba..n it still so fun as ever especially wif gd company :) ~ Its juz nt bored in tere which we thot it might be at first n we were tere till close..ha~ And tere's a little boy on the ship wif us who r so cute...His expressions is so cute :)

Be it genie or angel

I wan to be both

Call them out whn u nd either one

Bad mood again~

2009-07-25T09:58:00.000-07:00

Once again, I lost my temper..

I'm so sry..

Althot havent been in gd mood for whole dae bt i noe i shld'nt hav been like tat..

I juz likes to tink, tink alot..tink negatively~

I will try to change

Erm..

Thank for the walk..

I smiled in the end cose i gt to understand more..

I smiled more whn u finally tok~

N i love to listen to u..

Plz remember all i hav sae..

Juz be urself~

Tis is the csb i wan c n noe~

Free days~

2009-07-23T09:11:00.000-07:00

This 2 nights nv go dance bt stayed at hm ba..It's been long since i cld watch tv at night le ..haha..well for the first time i nv go dance cose im broke ba..damn maybe is the word i can use..erm...Was wonderin hw's LA class today..It sure be nice..Bt anyway i love being at hm..I feel so erm..haha~

Anyway i feel like learnin diving nw..Bt i noe its ex too..Erm..I will wan try it one dae i hope

;)

I wan be ur angel always by ur side.

Whn u r unhappy i hope tat i can be tere for u.

N i wan u to be happy frm the bottom of ur heart.

I dont wan u to be happy juz cose others r happy.

Others might nt care bt i care.

I hope u wont keep everything to urself.

I hope to be able to share ur sorrow tgt..

Stay happy always

Friends Forever

Off dae~

2009-07-21T07:20:00.000-07:00

Well today happened to be my off dae so went to meet Jacqueline for lunch at tiong bahru durin her break time..First time meeting her out to eat bt it feels gd..haha so long also nv c her le..N tis time i so damn fast de lo..she asked me yster, we today jiu meet up le..haha..N she's gg to get married nxt yr durin national dae ba.. OMG~ n she asked me to attend her big dae..n i was o.s shit!!~ I will get veri stressed when its coming..haha

Anyway it's tired to do it bt still i noe i hav to complete it.I juz started n so fast i gt bit sian cose my hands hurt.I felt tat im so damn slow bt still i will try to finish it asap..I hope the outcome will be gd n i really hope to c wat result it will bring~ erm..hope it turns out gd...

Went out wif a damn 'digusting' girl at night today n its so funny..Haha..Cant stop laughing la..Zzz..After tat dinner jiu home sweet hm.. :)

Anyway tis seem so cool~ I would like to try it one dae whn i cld..erm...
http://www.gv.com.sg/moviedetails/gv_moviedetails_2711.jsp

bad bad mood`~

2009-07-20T09:57:00.000-07:00

I always like to tink alot

It's gd n it's bad

Being in damn bad mood lately

Having bad temper n stuff

Hai~

Juz cose i like to tink too much

Tat feel is baq~

N i hate it

N i afraid

Plz go away...

bad mood~

2009-07-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

Well been tinkin wat is happenin to me for the whole dae today cose of some incident tat happens whn im gg hm fm work ba..N also bit related to work..erm..

I juz feel so nt me today~

Thanx...

I really like it~

n sry to spoilt the dae~

whoo~

2009-07-16T19:40:00.000-07:00

Wed nv go AnAn class ba cose nt save money to go LA on thu so met Jasmine go far east shop for her sch clothes.Haha~ N i felt tat wed night orchard rd hav many ppl too..opps~

Well for the first time i went for LA hiphop n Lyrical hiphop on thu..OMG~ Its really damn dope..fun is all i can sae bt tired thou..haha..LA by xuehui n Lyrical by ryan..

so cool ;D

N so as usual i'm baq to work again today..Haha tired erm..

Dont noe when will be my last dae..

Hope it will be at least 1 mth ltr bt nt too late too

erm~

...U r worth the wait...

Tired dae~

2009-07-14T23:20:00.000-07:00

Long since i post le ba..Juz a random recalled, erm..

Sat went lockin class n its was fun.. Haha~ nxt wk jiu cant go le ba cose gt to work again..erm..

Sun night went to marina to sing k wif yt,xl n zk ba..Me, xl n zk was late ba then made yt waited veri long..so sry~ erm.. then went hm late so hav to cab hm lo..

Mon went to test a bike ba.. Long time nv drive bt luckily im nt rusty yet..N when im on the bike the feel is baq le ba..haha i wan a bike asap :D

Im glad u enjoyed the dae

Where we tried everything new once again tgt~

Sry to made u spend so much too

Erm..

Althot i noe its dangerous

Bt remember to wait for me

N I wan you to help me design

Its juz for u~

Erm...

2009-07-10T09:50:00.000-07:00

Erm nw things is diff le ba..

Cose i dont noe when i'm gg in le..

So it means i more time nw..

n it also means

......................................................

Erm i won't noe wat i still do nw~

I promise~

Everythin u sae..

Everythin of u..

Is impt to me..

N i always remember it forever..

Thanks~

2009-07-09T08:40:00.000-07:00

This is nt wat i wan at all

I'm feelin the distance nw

U juz dont nd me at all

Right frm the start, i jiu dont understand u at all

I'm sorry~

Good news?

2009-07-09T06:55:00.000-07:00

Good or Bad?
Well today was workin n received a call ba..Erm.. N the person said: The sign n intake will be postponed ba~~ N i was like o.s(OMG~~ serious huh?.. So i asked n confirm again tat i nd nt go dwn for tat 2 daes n the person said yes..N i will be further notice..haha..Bt well..thinkin..its nt so gd too..erm~

After puttin dwn the phone i was like soooo happy~!! haha cose it means i gt more time to play..whoo~ n also means i gt to continue workin at my old job..haha sian~ bt ok la nd money so must work..

Thinkin tat tomolo was my last dae, so toushou sae today treat us eat..then zhen jie n mei jie gave me a chocolate each ba. N Ah lin gave me chocolate too n the box is like omg~~ haha.. Really thanz alot to all of them bt fri nt my last dae liao n i was like act so ps also..haha.Erm..ps eh n thanx again~ N today i felt i nv eat much bt i juz feel veri full lo..haha n im sick of chk liao.omg~ 2 n 1/2 plate n i can't finish it up..erm..

Anyway tis is done by Ah lin~ haha

Ah Lin chocolate :D

The footsteps seem so heavy when i'm walking hm..

Enjoyin the night breeze, bt it doesn't make me beta..

Thinkin, wonderin..

Thanz to my stup attitude n temper~

Anyway thanz for the soup :)

8 more daes to go~

2009-07-07T09:03:00.000-07:00

Today went to meet up wif the girls like for dont noe hw long we since each other liao..Haha..Everyone is juz so busy wif their own stuff ba..n so nan de all 6 of us can make it today :D Cose we all budget so we wnt coffeeshop to eat frm 8 to 10pm..chattin n eating..haha~ Erm..Everyone is still the same thou busy wif the same things..haha..Its like wah so fast we graduated liao n all is workin nw expect for doris.. :D

Jy woh everyone~

Always love to c tat smile :D

Always enjoyin every moment wif u :D

I'm ur genie, to grant u ur wishes :D

1 more wk

2009-07-06T08:18:00.000-07:00

I really wish to try out LA hiphop tis thu..erm..partly cose its taught by xuehui~ I only left wif 1 wk to dance ba so rachel told me to go for all the classes..haha..mon hiphop,wed hiphop, thu LA hiphop n lyrical hiphop, sat girl's hiphop..haha n seriously i really feel like gg to try out for all..nt to sae mon n wed which i go everytime of cose..haha..I even tinkin of gg lyrical jazz nxt mon..tink i siao liao..haha~ Bt seriously i really wan go for LA hiphop tis thu

Anyway today finally gt to use the new studio..its really damn big for the big one, n really damn small for the small one..haha..Luckily we change frm the small to the big one cose it's really too cramp in the small studio..somemore it gt no door..whaha~ Hiphop 1 used the small studio n cose tere's no aircon too, the whole studio mirror gt so blur.hahaha..O n act the floor i like it cose veri easy to slide..bt bad thing abt the studio is lousy aircon..OMG~ Went to ask xuehui hw was it juz nw n as usual..my movement is small..damn it..haha..so in a box..nxt wk i wan open big big liao~!!..erm..

Anyway my sis is gg to buy a flat wif her bf nxt wk le..its like omg tats fast.haha..Erm..feeling weird..haha~

A sunday morning~

2009-07-05T08:36:00.000-07:00

I enjoyed toking to them

N enjoyed knowin more things..

A dae we seem to do everything we nv do before.. :)

Enjoyed it once again~

..5 more daes..

It seems so long~

Ok today u win again liao lo.

Nxt wk u jiu noe :D

hehehehe~

..10 more daes to go..
It seems so fast~